Love Yourself 2.0

Alright. So it's almost the end of 2016 and I'm almost 19 years old. Wow. Both of those things kinda freak me out, because not only does it feel like the year went by so fast, but also, in the slow moments, it seemed like 2016 was the worst.

Of course this post is going to heavily rely on having lost a best friend recently, but sort of not recently, y'know. This is something that I really feel like sharing because I just feel like it's extremely important to talk about.
But first, I'd like to say sorry for really slacking on this blog, but honestly, I feel like this blog is really going to drift in and out of my life more often than it's going to be consistent.

And that'll be okay, because that means I'm focusing much more on quality over quantity, and I know that I would much rather appreciate that over anything else.

Here we are. 2016. Sophomore Year of College. Love Yourself 2.0.

So seriously. Love yourself, please.
Like I can't stress that enough.
No, like, seriously. Please allow yourself to love yourself before everyone else (except maybe like God & Jesus) because seriously if you don't love yourself then you really, really can't love anyone else as much as you are really, truly, able to.

I'm going to go over a lot of things that I've reassessed, relearned, and am hoping to remaster since June. Yeah, I've known these before, but June was a big wake up call for what I really, really need to focus on.

The first thing for me to go over is the fact that no one knows you better than you do. Don't let anyone tell you how you should live your life, because you know what makes you happy, you know what makes you sad; as long as you're focusing on what makes you better, you should let yourself know this truth; no one knows you like you do, and knowing is loving. If you don't know yourself very well, then chances are that you don't love yourself very well either. And that's okay. You can work on this. Allow yourself to not be perfect. Allow yourself to get up when you're down, when you've fallen, and allow yourself to fail as well as win after that. Life is an experiment and an experience. Try your best and I think you'll turn out okay.

If you know this, if this is a truth that you believe; that if you don't know yourself you can't love yourself, then take into account that no one knows you better than you do. If you don't know yourself very well, and, subsequently, people don't know you very well at all too, then doesn't it makes sense that other people can't love you more than you love yourself? Don't allow someone to be your primary motivation. Be your own primary motivation. Push for success for yourself, strive for excellence. Be your own first love. Do not allow anyone else to love you more than you love you, because chances are, they don't know who you completely and honestly are.

Along with this, don't trust someone more than you trust yourself. I felt myself betraying this ideal before this summer and I ignored it for the sake of being happy and feeling fulfilled in all aspects of my life, but like, that's stupid. You're never going to be fulfilled, and you're not always going to be happy, even when everything is going well and is working out and no one is just walking out of your life. Always trust yourself first because you will be the only person (besides God & Jesus) who will have your own back 100% of the time first.

The people that you love aren't your everything. Only you are your everything. Self-conserve, love yourself, trust yourself first. Only you are your everything.

And when people do walk out of your life, don't let them rob you of your sunlight. Keep shining, keep burning in brilliance. People might tell you, persuade you, or make you feel like you need to stop because they want to see you put out, but they don't know you like you do, they don't love you as much as you love yourself, and you can't trust them as much as you trust yourself, so keep being brilliant. Never settle for mediocrity. Don't be the type of person who allows themself to stay simple; live your best life.

But also think. Don't be the person who leaves because they are so selfish and angry and frustrated and don't want to try. Don't be the person who lets someone put their own sunlight and fire out. Don't be a person who acts like a true friend, but actually sits on the sidelines watching their "friend" fall. Help and allow everyone else around you to live their best lives and to shine in their own brilliance and to live, learn, and love.

Lastly, keep learning about yourself. Like I said earlier, you are never going to be fully fulfilled, ever. And I mean ever. At least, this hasn't been true in my experience yet, and I am only 18, but I can't ever imagine being 100% fully fulfilled on Earth. You can never stop evolving, stop changing, stop learning, stop yearning or else you're going to set yourself up for failure and sadness and anger. Don't be stagnant, please. Accept that you are a constantly improving person and accept that other people are also constantly improving. If we all do that then it will become a whole lot easier for people to love themselves.

Please. Love yourself. Know yourself. Trust yourself. Be yourself. Live your best life. Always learn more and more and more. Never stop until you've reached the end.

Everyday is just another day in the journey, in your search for a purpose. You'll find out your purposes eventually, but you'll keep getting more and more until the end. Don't let your lows keep you from reaching for your highs, even when a person you love, you knew, you trusted, you lived life with and learned from leaves your journey.
Please never stop being brilliant.
Ever.



Sorry for the long wait.
Hopefully the next wait won't be this long.

Comments

Popular Posts

Forward

Red: Life

Jr.